I am starting my first blog off with a confession. I am a Fool. I am continually doing stuff I know I shouldn’t be doing. It seems like I just can’t get a grip. I don’t know about you, but when I think about my life, it seems like I have fallen short more times than I can remember! Writing this paraphrase book of Proverbs has made me the target of the devil’s wrath and focus. For over 3 years, Satan has relentlessly sent trials, tests, tribulation, and temptations my way. Some of those obstacles I’ve overcome, and some I just plain keep failing. It seem like I just can’t seem to do the right thing. I got this thorn in my side I just can’t seem to break free from. You know it funny, when I try to do right – I don’t- even though I know better. This is very frustrating to me which has led me to question myself and ask if I’m really saved and a true Christian.
This weekend after another failure, I decided to see if I could find out why I keep doing the same old crap. So I picked up my Bible and began reading the book of Romans to see what the Apostle Paul had to say about messing up all the time. I kinda remember him talking about this same situation. In the book of Romans, Paul talks about the human struggle and constant failures we all experience. He explained that even those with God’s Spirit in their hearts still have a hard time resisting the flesh’s selfish ways even while seeking to obey God’s law. Paul summed up his struggle when he wrote: “I love God’s law with all my heart. But another power within me is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death?” (Romans 7:22-24, NLT).
Paul seems like he got the same challenges I got he goes on to say, “I am of the flesh, sold into slavery under sin. I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.… I want to do what is right, but I just cannot do it. I don’t do the good I want, and the evil I do is not what I want In my mind, I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature, I am a slave to sin.” Now that’s really messed up when you just don’t have any self control! So how do we overcome and stop committing the same old sins? What is the answer? I ain’ tying to die and go to hell, I need to know! Well, according to Paul, The answer is in believing and following Jesus Christ our Lord, and if we truly follow him and belong to him, he won’t condemn us to death and one day he will give us the power to free us of these sins of the flesh .
Sometimes I think that God is going to tell me, dude, you ain’t serious about stopping, you keep on sinning and you keep on coming back to me to confess when you mess up, So I’m going to stop protecting you from death and you going to hell! This really scares me, But what I’m seeing as I keep reading and studying Paul’s words is that: with every sin and subsequent repentance we make , a Christian does not repeatedly drift back and forth between being under a death sentence and under God’s grace. Paul says that we remain under God’s grace, with “no condemnation,” for our constant sin because God accepts Jesus sacrifice on the cross as our atonement. Even though we continue to struggle with the same sin, we are not condemned to each new sin. Paul says there remains “no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus.” Paul qualifies this in Romans 8 by explaining that this remains so only if we continue in the process of seriously trying to live according to the Holy Spirit in really want to follow God’s law. That means if we continue to repent, continue to confess our sins to God, continue seeking God forgiveness and restoration, and we are serious about it trying to obey Him, He will work with us! God’s grace of ongoing forgiveness empowers us to be obedient and finally one day makes us free.
This means that if we repent and confess, we come under Gods grace and if we slip up and sin again we are still under God’s grace and protected from death. Now all Christians struggle with temptations and sin in their everyday lives- that normal, But we must always be vigilant and strive against the pull of our sinful, selfish desires and constant sinful thoughts. But if we stop repenting when we sin we will continue to trend toward death. The only way that God will stop protecting us is if we deliberately and irrevocably sever our relationship with him and stop acknowledging that we know better. This means that if we have repented and come under grace and then slip up and fall again we are still under Gods grace. So, we must continue to get on our knees and repent and we must never stop submitting to God and the righteousness of His laws.
Paul says that when we sin, we need not fear that we are condemned by God. His relationship with us is not broken unless we ignore our relationship and do not seek his forgiveness and grace in our life. So, this is my take on this, If we continue to sin, the sin that plagues us shall not have control over us and send us to death because we are under the law and because we are not under the law of death but under God’s grace we are cool! Oh yea, and because we belong to him, the power of Gods life-giving Spirit has freed us from the power of sin that leads to death.” So even though I know I’m weak, and I keep making the same old mistake , I’m not gonna stop getting on my knees to repent my sins and I will keep asking God for the strength I need to overcome my fleshly desire and to get the grace he freely gives. My prayer will also be to ask him to motivate me to change my sinful ways and help me develop the inner desire to be just like him. I want to be possessed by his divine nature. So back on my knees I go again to confess and ask God to forgive me from my fleshly desire and to set me free from the law of sin and death